It was about 12 midnight and I was about to sleep. My eyes were heavy as I just finished writing an entry in my journal. When a thought entered my mind. I was talking to God and He asked me, “Do you love yourself more than I love you?”
This entry is a re-post from my multiply blog dated on November 4, 2008. It is related to my next entry about God and faith.
I had to get up.
I had to write it down.
And today, God told me to blog it and not to delay.
Do I love myself more than God loves me? I’m going to keep this message short and simple.
I thought: Will I die for myself needlessly, even if it’s to save my own soul?
Will I suffer the things Jesus suffered for me, even if it’s for myself?
It’s funny when I think about it. And at the same time it’s a scary thought. Maybe I do not understand what is important or who I really am. There’s the spiritual me and there’s the physical me. Will my physical self suffer and die for my spiritual self? Will I allow it, even if I know that my physical self is temporal and my spiritual one is eternal?
God loves me so much to die for me even when He didn’t have to. Will I do that? Even for myself? Sometimes we’re too afraid to die. To become separated from our physical body. We are so entangled with our physical identity that we have forgotten our spiritual one.
“I am such a selfish being that I will do everything for myself”, it’s instinctive for us humans to act and think like that. But personally, I’ve never encountered this thought – will I even be able or willing to die for myself?
Jesus died for me, He didn’t have to. He is King already and I’m a nobody. But He did it. And I might not understand it, but I believe that that is how it’s meant to be. Love can never be fully understood. Never. That is why it must always be good.
I’m just so glad that someone out there loves me even more than I love myself. It’s AMAZING!
Think about it.